I am on the last phase of ChaLean Extreme. Am I leaner? Not really. But I am certainly much stronger. I look firmer overall. I have one and a half months left to “get in shape for my wedding.” I would give up $10,000 from my salary to lose 2 inches off my waist so my figure would look more hourglass-like and nipped at the waist. But I know that I do not have the body type for an hourglass. Maybe I should diet?
The funniest thing is that I really do not know how to diet and drop weight quickly. I blog about eating healthy and exercising, both of which I already do. I can probably eat less, but I hate being hungry. I guess I can stop drinking water, but then I would get too thirsty. I do not believe in fad diets, but sometimes I cannot help but be a little envious of the friend that can drop 10 pounds a month when I have been trying to lose 10 pounds for the last year.
Shouldn’t every woman be entitled to go a little crazy about their weight sometimes? Ok, once every month is still reasonable. But when you are the bride, it feels like every flaw is magnified 100 times. I sometimes do not know if the pressure is self-induced or whether my friends and family are really judging my future happiness based upon the size of my thighs.
Oh yeah, did I tell you that my thighs increased an inch during phase 2 of ChaLean? It is probably the same inch that I lost from my chest. As if I really need that kind of body reconfiguration!
Am I afraid of bulking? The logical part of me knows that I do not have enough testosterone to look like my governor, Arnie. But with a body type that tends to get thicker around the waist and thigh area, I cannot help but worry that I will end up looking more like a triangle than an hourglass during my wedding. My only consolation is that I have an A-line wedding gown and that style of dress can hide my thicker thighs. Too bad it does nothing for my shrinking chest.
Until next time and thanks for stopping by Small Steps to Health.
Photo by: Evil Erin.
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